firstly, hope you search you heart and find what you’re looking for. the world is too big and too beautiful for you too not have company. go make some new friends who’ll love you just the way you are.
secondly, i hope you’re coping cause it’d be really sad if you end up worse then me, what with the better o levels and the much bigger brain. study hard and don’t worry about the rest; have faith in hardwork.
thirdly, i kinda feel guilty for wanting the world to be fair so much. but i really hope you’re less arrogant next time, after all i’m the idiot over here. anyway you’ll do fine, just don’t become even more insufferable.
fourthly, i hope you’re doing well too. because you’re too sincere about what you do and people, in general, really deserve stuff for that. after all if you did badly, i’d have to spend a lot of effort to prevent you from tormenting yourself too much.
fifth, i wished you never asked, because i finally grew up and grew over everything that happened way before. yeah and maybe it’s my fault cause i’m like way too fragile and imbalanced to be let loose, i quite frankly scare myself when i’m out of control.
this officially proves i’m not a cold-blooded, heartless asshole. not all the time :D
school was like spam sleep.
came home, ran, pullups.
and then did rj maths. WAHLAUEH. fierce mother.
i am going to do another one after this.
then maybe chem.
then i’ll check what time it is.
how futile our efforts are to love,
why bother when it never lasts,
but someone has to draw the line,
between letting go of everything
and holding just a little longer.
gonna crash, without doing work. again.
bad bad bad.
- Tim Oen says:
- and disturb you
- sian shes going lt2
- M!CH@3L | T.T says:
- Tim Oen says:
- M!CH@3L | T.T says:
- then go lt 2 lah.
you don’t wanna read this, really.
i’m scared because i don’t wanna retain. i don’t wanna change class. i like my class! and realising the posibility of needing to NOT get a U for econs to promote is damn fucking scary. anyway my physics is going to be nowhere near a B, cause i have practised like NOTHING. maths won’t be a fail, i think, i hope, but a C sounds quite hard. chem will be like -_-, i just wanna get higher than the S. econs is going to be some joke, just hopefully not as great as this one. blah blah blah. i understand chem in bits, physics in bigger bits. maths is fine as long as i don’t forget anything and the amount of econs that stays stuck in my head is really small. and then like even if i promote, somehow, i don’t wanna change class which means i can’t drop anything to a h1, which somehow everyone thinks i should, cause i’m sucha noob. so again i really don’t wanna change class, because asides from the world knowing me at a t12 reject, getting comfortable in a new class is going to suck balls. and i don’t even want to think about what i’m supposed to do for As to get into any university.
T.T i’d cry if i had the energy argh fuck.
today was a bad day.
i love reading the titles of my previous posts! so cool hahahaha, like some summarised history of my mood everytime i start to tumble a post.
oh god if i need to pass econs to promote, then like…. fuckkkkkk. great.
chem consultation more tiring then ten km run i swear.
everything off already.
you see i’m one of those weird people who don’t believe in a lot of invisible rules and stigmas and thingums. so if you’re one of those “if you don’t message me first, then we’re not talkin” kinda people, then i think we have a problem.
so don’t say i never think/thought about you.
i forsee a lot of spammage of stuff like this.
not to make this day a waste, again, for the godknowswhatth time, michael.
today was a waste. like really. asides from the run and stuff.
and i need new shoes. again >.< haiz.
and i really want that pair of jeans (zomg i sound like a girl ahahahahaha fuck).
okay bye i shall go to my room, turn up mike posner and ponder about the complexities of procrastination.
And if i’m addicted to loving you,
and you’re addicted to my love too,
we can be them two birds of a feather that flock together.
argh. prodcutivity kinda fail.
stopped a tiny kid from wandering onto the road just now.
fucked-up parent, i swear. pfft.